Today my boy has his exam in violin at music school. Tomorrow his exam in theory. And here I stand- trembling in my boots.
It isn’t that he can’t do well or isn’t prepared. He knows his pieces on the violin like the back of his hand. But he is 6, emotional, stubborn at times and prone to silliness.
And so I have been in a growing panic since I found out his exam was today and the hours have ticked slowly closer.
Why? I ask myself do I feel so worried? Would him failing or messing up mean I had failed as a Mom? Is it the pressure I felt as a child preforming for judges still gnawing away at me? And would it really be so horrible if he did play poorly or get up and get stage fright and refuse to play altogether?
I have been there, I know the embarrassment of forgetting 10 memorized pieces which had to be juried. Yet, I was older and a very conscientious child. He is 6, and doesn’t seem to be fazed by embarrassment yet or failure.
Today as I had my quiet time these words came leaping off the page at me
“I offer abundant Life; your part is to trust Me, refusing to worry about anything, . . Determined to make things go your way, you forget that I am in charge of your life.“
Wow, that hit me right where I needed it. I have fretted and fussed over this exam, and it isn’t even my exam. Sure it is the first major exam a child of mine has ever had, and so I feel it very keenly. But God is in control of this- and I must try him.
So wish my boy luck or better yet say a prayer!